Quote of the Day

"Fiction is the truth inside the lie." Stephen King

Friday, November 26, 2010

Life is a highway...

or a train track.

I'm feeling a bit melancholy today. Maybe it's just that I'm tired. Maybe I feel like the only one in the world NOT out shopping and taking advantage of great deals on this Black Friday! I'm here, cuddled up under a blanket at my computer, eating leftovers from Thanksgiving lunch WAY too early in the morning and wanting to write.

I think my musing today is on relationships. How they change you, even if you're only there a short while. Or a LONG while. But you never come out the same.

I learned some things about someone I love yesterday, and for the better part of the evening, I felt so disappointed. I felt I didn't know them as well as I thought. I also felt I understood some other things about them SO much better now, knowing the 'new to me' facts. But a crushing feeling was upon me for awhile, like loving a little beach where I'd go and sit and run my fingers and toes thru the sand and think, what a beautiful beach...only to discover it was only a beach because a huge volcano had erupted years ago and took a wild forest apart, creating this place I now sat. Having no idea there was ever a volcano there in the first place. Was I lied to by the beach because it was so different before? Of course not, the beach didn't owe me any explanations. But it DID help me to understand why the tops of tall pines stuck out where the dunes were supposed to be.

Make sense? Probably not. I guess I'm trying to say that life is ... I prefer to say it's a train ride (because nothing in the world has proven better for me than getting on the train in my little Virginia town and heading to Manhattan, NYC baby! :). We come away a little different after every stop.

Life's about forgiving, forgetting, and learning from our mistakes. Letting ourself sulk a little, be sad about things, then finding a place in our hearts to file it away and get excited about what's down the track, waiting and ready to change us a little bit more.



  1. relationships are weird. I've had to take a step back and evaluate where I am right now and I'm not sure I like it. Too passionate, too comfortable, too young, too immature, too volatile.

    it's enough to make your heart ache.

  2. Tracy-sometimes enlightenment is hard, eh? I remember my phase when I was exploring religions a little and hearing that Buddhists believe we choose our lessons before we start each life. I laughed and shook my head, thinking there were things I'd just prefer to have never learned, but that is sort of the way of wisdom... I wish I hadn't had to learn, but am probably a better person for knowing... we increase our compassion and test our convictions. In the end, that's a good thing, even if it is no fun. Sending hugs to you.

  3. Lucky for me, I'm in a great relationship personally. I think I've been caught up in the past too much, and worried about silly things that do NOT matter at all. Dr. Phil said the past of a person is a great indicator of their future. Well, I'm with him to a point. But also, I am NOT the same person I was three years ago. Really bad times change us forever, and we come out different and better but very protective of our hearts.

    I tend to forget I'm the not only one that's been hurt.:( But I love the ride I'm on with this one, and hope it doesn't end. :)